Coming Out, Etc.

So while we were excited, there's no promise that families would be. We've gone through some personal things the past year, and it isn't always a promise anymore as to how our families view our relationship. Once we saw the heartbeat, and heard it, Mike told his mom. She was elated, which is everything I had hoped. I don't expect everyone to be without doubts, but it's important to me that everyone at least try to be supportive of our decision. This happened, and now we will have a baby. I'm not going to terminate our child to appease my family.

So yes! His family? Check. Excited? Check. My family? Pardon me while I run away. LOL.

So I gathered up my balls and told my family this weekend. They had the usual concerns (Mike getting laid off recently, are we keeping the house clean, am I cleaning the cat litter, etc) but seemed supportive enough. I guess that's really all I can ask for. They didn't yell at me, or berate me in anyway. And that is a big plus as far as I'm concerned.

No one's situation is ever ideal for adding a new child, but our's is fairly stable. I have a career with job stability and decent pay, we own a home, we own our vehicles, etc. We are doing okay for ourselves, and I think we'll be able to do fine for our child as well. It's so hard sometimes to keep my chin up regarding this. I'm not trying to sound ungrateful, but I just worry about what type of mom I'll be, will Mike actually like having a child, will he leave, could I be a single mom if I had to, etc. There are some scary questions that pop up when you start to realize that being pregnant isn't just a line on a test, it's a BABY. One that will be living with you, and entirely dependant upon you very soon. I have momentary freak outs, but I do okay. :)

I have been feeling surprisingly well considering. I had some pretty bad food aversions at times, but I always manage to find something to eat! I've certainly been eating my fair share. My water retention is amazing, and my ankles swell a little by the end of each day. I get nauseous only when I'm hungry, and as long as I eat I'm fine. I have not thown up at all. I am moody (VERY moody) and tired off and on. Some days I'm fine, some days I'm literally falling asleep at my desk. I wish my mom was alive so I could ask her how her morning sickness was, it would be fun to compare! I'm just happy I'm not sick all the time. I couldn't imagine being sick, tired, moody, AND hormonal. :P

Surprise!

So I haven't blogged in 18 internet years.. but I've been a bit busy because I'm pregnant! I'm currently past 11 weeks, and time seems like it's flying. We found out when I was 4 weeks, the day after we got back from our previously mentioned anniversary trip. I've already had one ultrasound, and it was precious! I've never seen anything quite like it. Even seeing friend's ultrasounds doesn't compare. That little flickering heartbeat? That's OUR creation. It's absolutely amazing! So I've been taking belly pictures, because I'm a crazy hippy like that. I'm obviously not showing yet, but it will be fun to look back on!

5 weeks pregnant, before I even knew:



8 weeks:

8 weeks:

9 weeks:

10 weeks:

9 Weeks!

How far along? 9w2d

Total weight gain/loss: up about 4!

Maternity clothes? bella band some days

Stretch marks? no new ones

Sleep: so far so good, but I still have WEIRD dreams every night

Best moment this week: getting an appt with my desired OB, seeing baby last week!

Movement: baby is moving, but I can't feel it

Food cravings: cheese!

Gender: everyone thinks boy

Labor Signs: Nope

Belly Button in or out? in

What I miss: smoking cigarettes. nasty habit, but I miss it anyway

What I am looking forward to: my first OB appt May 20th

Weekly Wisdom: chill out on the emo, man. life's too short to go from gleeful to murderous every 30 seconds.

8 Weeks

How far along? 8 weeks!

Total weight gain/loss: +4 pounds..ouch!

Maternity clothes? nope, bella band some days

Stretch marks? none that are new!

Sleep: very weird dreams. in other news, always want to sleep!

Best moment this week: hearing that my ultrasound date was moved up to tomorrow!

Movement: none

Food cravings: changes throughout the day. pizza, cheese, pickles, cheeseburgers, taco bell

Gender: I don't know.

Labor Signs: Nope.

Belly Button in or out? In!

What I miss: I miss not being ravenous for food

What I am looking forward to: tomorrow at 10am so I can see my bean!

Weekly Wisdom: Relax! Things progress just fine without trying to micromanage everything.

7 Weeks

How Far Along: 7 weeks

Total Weight Gain/Loss: +3!!!! Hopefully water weight.

Maternity Clothes: Nope

Stretch Marks: Only the ones I've had since puberty

Sleep: I slept 10 hours last night, and could go for more!

Best moment this week: Realizing that time is flying by!

Movement: There is movement, I just can't feel it

Food cravings: Cheeseburgers and Taco Bell

Gender: No idea

Labor Signs: Oh no!

Belly button: Innie!

What I miss: pooping!

What I'm looking forward to: my ultrasound!

Weekly Wisdom: Don't stress yourself out. Google is not always your friend.

Been A While

So I let life get in the way of blogging here recently. Sorry about that! I've been low-carbing again (& therefore craving carbs like CRAZY since Friday) and focusing all of my attention on staying awake, fighting intermittent nausea, and avoiding any carbohydrate that doesn't come from a vegetable. Exciting!

Low carbing definitely works for me, for sure, but that first few days is hell to a carb-o-holic like me. I'm on day 3, so hopefully I'll get over my cravings soon. Last time I believe the cravings stopped around day 4 or 5. So I'm getting there. I'm down 2 pounds since Saturday though, so my body is dumping the water that carbs made me retain.

Gah. I'm bored. Waiting on my coworker to get back from BK. I got a double cheeseburger (without bun) and an order of the apple fries. I love apples. Nom.

Oooooh, he's back so I'm going to go pig out, sans carbs. :)

Tra lala..

I haven't written in a while because there has been nothing to say! I have been doing a lot of reading and researching about health issues and nutrients, and I've been eating really healthy. I feel good because of it.

Now if only the darn weight would drop off! I've been at the same weight for SO LONG and my body just doesn't want to get rid of it. I haven't been working out as much as I should thought, either. Tonight I'm for sure riding my bike at least a few blocks, and then lifting some weights.

In other news, I'm so excited for our vacation!!! :D