Coming Out, Etc.

Wednesday, May 6, 2009

So while we were excited, there's no promise that families would be. We've gone through some personal things the past year, and it isn't always a promise anymore as to how our families view our relationship. Once we saw the heartbeat, and heard it, Mike told his mom. She was elated, which is everything I had hoped. I don't expect everyone to be without doubts, but it's important to me that everyone at least try to be supportive of our decision. This happened, and now we will have a baby. I'm not going to terminate our child to appease my family.

So yes! His family? Check. Excited? Check. My family? Pardon me while I run away. LOL.

So I gathered up my balls and told my family this weekend. They had the usual concerns (Mike getting laid off recently, are we keeping the house clean, am I cleaning the cat litter, etc) but seemed supportive enough. I guess that's really all I can ask for. They didn't yell at me, or berate me in anyway. And that is a big plus as far as I'm concerned.

No one's situation is ever ideal for adding a new child, but our's is fairly stable. I have a career with job stability and decent pay, we own a home, we own our vehicles, etc. We are doing okay for ourselves, and I think we'll be able to do fine for our child as well. It's so hard sometimes to keep my chin up regarding this. I'm not trying to sound ungrateful, but I just worry about what type of mom I'll be, will Mike actually like having a child, will he leave, could I be a single mom if I had to, etc. There are some scary questions that pop up when you start to realize that being pregnant isn't just a line on a test, it's a BABY. One that will be living with you, and entirely dependant upon you very soon. I have momentary freak outs, but I do okay. :)

I have been feeling surprisingly well considering. I had some pretty bad food aversions at times, but I always manage to find something to eat! I've certainly been eating my fair share. My water retention is amazing, and my ankles swell a little by the end of each day. I get nauseous only when I'm hungry, and as long as I eat I'm fine. I have not thown up at all. I am moody (VERY moody) and tired off and on. Some days I'm fine, some days I'm literally falling asleep at my desk. I wish my mom was alive so I could ask her how her morning sickness was, it would be fun to compare! I'm just happy I'm not sick all the time. I couldn't imagine being sick, tired, moody, AND hormonal. :P


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