Stereotypical

So I'm sitting here watching cheesy shows on TV, bumping, and I have a full jar of pickles next to me. I'm a walking cliche.

Boring

So I've been boring lately. I really have nothing to say! I am working all the time, and just plain trying to get through the days. I'm still tired a lot, which I'm hoping decreases soon now that I'm second trimester. It seems a little odd to me that I'm already 1/3 of the way through this pregnancy. I thought 25% was a miracle, 33.3% is just crazy!

I'm loving the fact that we get to find out the gender in a little over a month. I'm still hoping for a boy, but I'm starting to ease into the idea that it very well could be a girl. I was adament that it be a boy, but it's getting easier to imagine a little girl. I'm glad, I really don't want to be upset by the determination of gender! LOL

Work drama is about the usual, at least one flare up a day, luckily none involving (or trying to involve) me lately. Home life is good, relaxing when I'm at home, and trying to somehow stay awake at night long enough to spend some time with Mike. I spend a lot of every day wanting to take a day off, but I can't. Well I can, I wouldn't get fired or anything, but I feel guilty if I take a day off, and I feel like money really needs to be had, so I don't ever take a day off.

I'm definitely in shock that I went from 13 weeks, back to 12 weeks, now I'm almost 14 weeks, but REALLY 14 weeks!! I feel like that last bit of first trimester hung on for dear life! :) Yay!

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14 Weeks!

How far along? 14 weeks
Total weight gain/loss: I LOST 2 pounds this week. Still +5lbs total.
Maternity clothes? I bought a maternity shirt! Just one.
Stretch marks? no
Sleep: Crazy dreams, never comfortable.
Best moment this week: Seeing baby again at ultrasound!!
Movement: Baby is moving, I can't feel it though
Food cravings: changes constantly, but I always want tuna, nachos, and mexican food
Gender: I'm feeling boy!
Labor Signs: Nope.
Belly Button in or out? In!
What I miss: I miss pooping.
What I am looking forward to: July 1st! We find out babies gender!!

Weekly Wisdom: All the worry first tri puts you through is unneccesary. I worried my butt off and everything is perfectly fine!

3 Day Weekend

It's day 3 of my 3 Day Weekend. I wish it wasn't so. I don't want to have to work tomorrow! Things are all good in my uterus, and in my life. I'm relaxing, playing the sims, and decided to take a second to post to tell everyone I hope you have a good Memorial Day!!

I'll be back later with the 13 week survey & picture!

Okay..

So I went to Target, and purchased a new bra. Holy crap do my boobs feel better!! I also browsed the maternity section (aka the two racks) and found one single item I liked, a lavendery-pinky shirt. It's super cute, and it was on sale. I walked around the baby clothes, and just had fun looking. I looked for some DHA, but I can NEVER find the stuff! I've looked in Walmart, Kmart, Target, and the grocery store. I guess I'm stuck ordering online. My OB said it was optional to take, but it doesn't hurt, and I'd feel better if I was taking it.

So I'm rocking my new bra and my maternity shirt and just enjoying my saturday. I'm about to either go eat, go grocery shopping, play The Sims, watch TV, or take a nap. Who knows.

First OB Appt

Well, I had my first OB appointment yesterday. It was a lot of fun. Very nerve wracking, but fun. It was weird being around other pregnant people. I felt like I didn't belong in their little club. LOL

I had to of course pee in a cup, get weighed, answer questions, blood pressure check, pap, pelvic exam, and then I got my ULTRASOUND! Yay! It was awesome, the baby was moving and flipping, and even waved at us! Our take home picture shows the little hand waving. Not really detailed, but I can tell it's the hand because I saw it live! I'm excited for next time, July 1st, because then we find out the sex of the baby!!

According to my LMP I was 13w2d yesterday, butttt due to my irregular periods I turned out to be 12w2d. So exactly one week behind. Not too bad! I guess I'm just reliving week 12. :P I already edited my blog to reflect correct weeks for the surveys. Either way, I'm just so happy everything was fine!

13 Weeks!

How far along? 13 weeks
Total weight gain/loss: no gain this week
Maternity clothes? no
Stretch marks? no
Sleep: I have insane dreams, from hot and heavy sex dreams, to dreams about my face getting eaten by a spider.
Best moment this week: Making it to 12 weeks - second trimester!
Movement: Baby is moving, I can't feel it though
Food cravings: changes constantly, but I always want tuna, nachos, and mexican food
Gender: I'm feeling boy!
Labor Signs: Nope.
Belly Button in or out? In!
What I miss: I miss pooping.
What I am looking forward to: My next appointment this wednesday! Another ultrasound! :)

Weekly Wisdom: People will be confused when you tell them you're pregnant but you don't LOOK pregnant. For some reason people think if you're in second trimester you should magically look 6 months pregnant.

Wow..

I'm under 200 days left in my pregnancy!! I'm in shock! It seems like just the other day I got those two pink lines, and now all of the sudden the baby in my little ticker LOOKS like a baby, and instead of 200+ days I'm at 198! I'm so excited.

In other news, this weekend I've been incredibly boring and I wouldn't of changed it for anything. I read Belly Laughs by Jenny McCarthy (oh yeah, I cried at the end), started on What To Expect When You're Expecting, and I'm about half way through Girlfriend's Guide to Pregnancy. All of the books are nice, but I like Girlfriend's Guide and Belly Laughs the best. They aren't strictly informative, they are funny! We watched movies and lounged around all yesterday. Today we went grocery shopping, and I've just sat around. I'm watching Deliver Me on Discovery Health, and just being bored online.

So all in all, a good weekend! Tomorrow marks 12 weeks, so I'll have survey and a new picture up. Time is flying. :)

Ergh

Today is an angry day. I tried to sleep in (and I did, until 11:30) but my hips and sciatic nerve started hurting so bad I had to get up. And my neck hurts all the time. I think I need new pillows or something? I'm just feeling crappy in general, and Mike's mom is coming over tomorrow so I have to clean house. For some reason Mike is home all week and doesn't think to do dishes, or laundry. We literally had a mountain of laundry. So.. me feeling like ass I have to sweep, do 3 loads of laundry, and dishes.

Not happy.

Excitement

I am so excited that our next appointment is next Wednesday! I get to see baby again! Yay! :)

I also can't believe I'm almost 12 weeks. Whoever said time slows down during pregnancy is crazy! Some days do drag, but overall time is flying, and I couldn't be loving it more. Less than one week and I get to see something that actually looks like a baby (where at baby looked like a bean last time!).

Of course my anxiety still acts up sometimes, and makes me think of missed miscarriages and other nasty things. Like what if the heartbeat stopped since our last appointment? I realllllly try not to think about things like that, because I get all panicky and until someone tells me otherwise- I'm pregnant and my baby is healthy.

Good Day

Today was a good day. I didn't have any crazy customers, I didn't get yelled at, I didn't fall asleep at my desk, and I didn't eat fast food (but I did cave to a piece of chocolate cake. shhhh)

I measure my days in the small things sometimes, because I really tend to get overwhelmed easily. It's sad how my great grandmothers initial reaction to my pregnancy makes me angry, but random strangers comments make my day. At the end of the day all I want is people to be happy for me. Even if you're really not, even if you're lying to me, just.. tell me you're happy. Sometimes all I need to keep my brain from kicking into overdrive is people to extend common courtesies to me, and be nice.

I'd rather be lied to than be told I'm a disappointment. That is all.

Whoa

Baby in my ticker was stretched out yesterday, and today it's all hunched over in the fetal position! Is it sad that seeing that made me giggle? I'm such a silly sap lately. Everything baby related makes me all wide-eyed and giddy. :)

I am SO TIRED. I need a pregnancy pillow, or some sleeping medication. The past two nights Mike and I both had trouble sleeping for no reason. Mine is that my hips start to hurt if I lay on one side too long, and my neck cramps up a lot, which prevents me from getting back to sleep once I wake up. Impossible to get comfortable! I am definitely wanting a Snoogle, or a walmart knockoff version. I may have to hit that up this weekend if this continues. It seems way too early to be wanting something like that, but oh well! Sleep is very neccesary in my life.

I had a tuna sammich for lunch yesterday, and today! Let me tell you, it was fan-tastic! I also bought a small seedless watermelon this weekend and chopped it up. I definitely have it in the fridge. Mmmm. Food is one of my all time favorite things, and even more so now! Thank GOODNESS I'm past my aversion to health food. I swear if I had to go one more day where all I want is a cheeseburger I might die. Now I feel like cheeseburgers gross me out. The greasy ick. Tuna isn't exactly a salad, but at least it's not greasy! LOL.

I feel good. Happy. :)

12 Weeks

How far along? 12 weeks

Total weight gain/loss: +7 lbs (+1 this week)

Maternity Clothes? No, but I've started at least looking at them, so I have an idea when I do need them!

Stretch Marks? No new ones!

Sleep? Yes, Please! I'm still consistently tired all day.

Best moment this week: Realizing I'm under 200 days left

Movement? Well, none I can feel!

Food Cravings: Cereal.

Gender: No idea!

Labor Signs: nothing

Belly Button in or out? In.

What I miss: Nothing today. LOL

What I am looking forward to: Next ultrasound on May 20th!

Weekly Wisdom: Enjoy this time! Sleep is still possible, and weekends where you don't get off the couch are still possible. Enjoy the pregnancy :)

Milestones: I can feel my uterus! I know it sounds dumb but I've been feeling for it and this morning I found it right above my pubic bone. Woo!

11 Weeks, Delayed

How far along? 11w3d

Total weight gain/loss: up about 6! Pleaseeee be water weight.

Maternity clothes? none, I'm back to being able to wear clothes.

Stretch marks? no new ones

Sleep: not so hot some nights. I get hot, go to the bathroom, im itchy, then I can't fall back asleep. some nights I'm out like a light, just depends.

Best moment this week: telling my family, and getting it out of the way.

Movement: Oh yeah, little arms and legs are a wigglin'. I can't feel it though!

Food cravings: Anything. And everything.

Gender: Since everyone keeps referring to baby as a boy, I've started too as well!

Labor Signs: Nope

Belly Button in or out? in

What I miss: pooping without pain.

What I am looking forward to: my first OB appt May 20th

Weekly Wisdom: Please try to relax! If you're tired, take a nap!

Coming Out, Etc.

So while we were excited, there's no promise that families would be. We've gone through some personal things the past year, and it isn't always a promise anymore as to how our families view our relationship. Once we saw the heartbeat, and heard it, Mike told his mom. She was elated, which is everything I had hoped. I don't expect everyone to be without doubts, but it's important to me that everyone at least try to be supportive of our decision. This happened, and now we will have a baby. I'm not going to terminate our child to appease my family.

So yes! His family? Check. Excited? Check. My family? Pardon me while I run away. LOL.

So I gathered up my balls and told my family this weekend. They had the usual concerns (Mike getting laid off recently, are we keeping the house clean, am I cleaning the cat litter, etc) but seemed supportive enough. I guess that's really all I can ask for. They didn't yell at me, or berate me in anyway. And that is a big plus as far as I'm concerned.

No one's situation is ever ideal for adding a new child, but our's is fairly stable. I have a career with job stability and decent pay, we own a home, we own our vehicles, etc. We are doing okay for ourselves, and I think we'll be able to do fine for our child as well. It's so hard sometimes to keep my chin up regarding this. I'm not trying to sound ungrateful, but I just worry about what type of mom I'll be, will Mike actually like having a child, will he leave, could I be a single mom if I had to, etc. There are some scary questions that pop up when you start to realize that being pregnant isn't just a line on a test, it's a BABY. One that will be living with you, and entirely dependant upon you very soon. I have momentary freak outs, but I do okay. :)

I have been feeling surprisingly well considering. I had some pretty bad food aversions at times, but I always manage to find something to eat! I've certainly been eating my fair share. My water retention is amazing, and my ankles swell a little by the end of each day. I get nauseous only when I'm hungry, and as long as I eat I'm fine. I have not thown up at all. I am moody (VERY moody) and tired off and on. Some days I'm fine, some days I'm literally falling asleep at my desk. I wish my mom was alive so I could ask her how her morning sickness was, it would be fun to compare! I'm just happy I'm not sick all the time. I couldn't imagine being sick, tired, moody, AND hormonal. :P

Surprise!

So I haven't blogged in 18 internet years.. but I've been a bit busy because I'm pregnant! I'm currently past 11 weeks, and time seems like it's flying. We found out when I was 4 weeks, the day after we got back from our previously mentioned anniversary trip. I've already had one ultrasound, and it was precious! I've never seen anything quite like it. Even seeing friend's ultrasounds doesn't compare. That little flickering heartbeat? That's OUR creation. It's absolutely amazing! So I've been taking belly pictures, because I'm a crazy hippy like that. I'm obviously not showing yet, but it will be fun to look back on!

5 weeks pregnant, before I even knew:



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