Been A While

So I let life get in the way of blogging here recently. Sorry about that! I've been low-carbing again (& therefore craving carbs like CRAZY since Friday) and focusing all of my attention on staying awake, fighting intermittent nausea, and avoiding any carbohydrate that doesn't come from a vegetable. Exciting!

Low carbing definitely works for me, for sure, but that first few days is hell to a carb-o-holic like me. I'm on day 3, so hopefully I'll get over my cravings soon. Last time I believe the cravings stopped around day 4 or 5. So I'm getting there. I'm down 2 pounds since Saturday though, so my body is dumping the water that carbs made me retain.

Gah. I'm bored. Waiting on my coworker to get back from BK. I got a double cheeseburger (without bun) and an order of the apple fries. I love apples. Nom.

Oooooh, he's back so I'm going to go pig out, sans carbs. :)

Tra lala..

I haven't written in a while because there has been nothing to say! I have been doing a lot of reading and researching about health issues and nutrients, and I've been eating really healthy. I feel good because of it.

Now if only the darn weight would drop off! I've been at the same weight for SO LONG and my body just doesn't want to get rid of it. I haven't been working out as much as I should thought, either. Tonight I'm for sure riding my bike at least a few blocks, and then lifting some weights.

In other news, I'm so excited for our vacation!!! :D

Oh Happy Day..

Today should be a better day than yesterday, hopefully. I just can't take feeling how I felt yesterday. So absolutely miserable, and hopeless. I actually had to talk myself out of some pretty bad thoughts last night. I hate being bipolar, because moods are never just a state of being. Always fluctuating and moving and threatening to kill any hope of a good day. Yesterday was the perfect example.

So far today things are going smooth.. just about to rearrage my desk. I do it every two or three weeks just to beat the monotony of office work. Not really sure how to rearrange though, because I'm pretty happy with the way things are now. Maybe a few tweaks, like moving around pictures.

Bad Day

Today is a bad day. I feel fat, disgusting, depressed, and ill. I feel like I might hurl.

For some reason today just took a horrible turn and now I just want to go home and go to sleep.

Strange day..

I keep having horrible nightmares every night. I wake up sobbing and shaking. It's so annoying! I've also been having headaches every single day. The dreams usually involve me being chased, someone I love dying, or losing something important. Dreams like this make me feel emotionally raw and stressed out. Here's to hoping tonight is filled with sweet dreams.

Or at least some less frightening ones :P

Note

I did indeed purchase our hotel stay for our vacation next month.

Serious insane anxiety involving booking (even 5 hours later I'm panicky.)

Obviously if I have this much anxiety over booking a vacation then I NEED a vacation.

Anxiety

So I'm having booking anxiety when it comes to actually booking our hotel room for our anniversary. Anxiety is telling me "what if we could get a better deal?" (yeah right! Spring Break in Florida, not happening) "what if the hotel sucks?" (with Siesta Village RIGHT THERE and Siesta Beach RIGHT THERE we don't need no stinkin' fancy pants hotel!)

I'm going to book it though. Today. before they have a chance to jack up their rates Spring Break style. Wish me luck, and no buyer's remorse. :P